Lets open up..!

I've been holding myself from writing for 3 weeks and more..
Just to avoid any stupid comments or annoying fights here or there..
But suddenly I found out that am only neglecting myself.. I noticed that am only avoiding my anger that I'll sure face in the first letter I'll write!!!
I believe its very hard to shut down yourself, to switch off your feelings just to please anyone..!!
Just to escape the fight..!!
But I lately noticed again that I have no right to kill my feelings.. Just as we are not allowed to hold our breath till death.. Its not acceptable and its not even comfortable!!
So I've decided to open up.. Bring it all out.. Through away all the rusted parts of my heart.. Am turning back to my original job.. I will restore it.. Replace the highly damaged parts and conserve the repairable parts.. It will take sometime.. Yes, little hard.. Sure yes, but its never impossible..!
 
I'll start with my loving feelings and say.. Yes I love u, u close ones to me, in spite of the hurt.. The anger and the pain u brought to my heart..
I still and always will love each one of u...
 
Then I'll step next to my anger and say, you.. Who managed to some extent to push my anger to the maximum sometimes..
Although I can never care the less for anything you say or do.. But you did it.. And I cant minimize your achievement ..
You've earned my congratulations..!
 
Finally I'll reach deep down to the darkest part, the part I never liked in my heart.. Am not willing in here to give you the chance to enjoy it but I just have to admit it, you  successfully managed to reach down there.. You are now a black stain has to be wiped carefully.. Ashes of a burned memory has to be blown away to clear out that heart basement am keeping my junk hard feelings in!! Although I didn't wish to hate you or anyone...
But you've earned my congratulations again and again..!

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On February, 09, 2007 5:26 PM , caller
from Egypt said:

VERY VERY FEW people manage to turn and stand up against the draft,wind and face sunlight with wide opened eyes..
VERY VERY FEW people who care less about stupid sayings of coldhearted people and their untrue accusations..
VERY VERY FEW people take a risk to claim their right in happiness and what they see as important for their own being..
VERY VERY FEW people who have the strength to break cleches and readymade monuments and stand a struggle..
VERY VERY FEW people would appreciate such inner strength and insightfull logic..
and you are one of what is rare..
stand up tall and hold your head high..
Congratulations...you are a living human individual..
( and i don't give a damn what will they ever think of me..they are just shallow untrue living organisms)


On February, 10, 2007 7:37 PM , hamede
from United States said:

Good luck.


On February, 10, 2007 8:15 PM , Summer
from Lebanon said:

Enas...el hamdulillah 3ala essalamah!!
missed reading from you...the way to take care of any problem in this life is face it, looking at in straight in the eye and ask your questions..you will find your answers pretty soon and the problem will be all out of your face forever..it might take time, but you will be all right...see you next week..i cannot wait to see you and Rasha. take care dear.


On February, 10, 2007 10:09 PM , Abd El Rahman
from Egypt said:

مرة كان رئيس جمهورية بلد ما ماشي في الشارع وإذ بيافطة مكتوب عليها

شارع ابن الدزمة

صُعق رئيس الجمهورية وسأل رئيس الحي : ازاي شارع يبقى اسمه كده ، لازم اسم الشارع ده يتغير

شالوا اليافطة القديمة وحطوا مكانها يافطة مكتوب عليها

شارع حسني .... ابن الدزمة سابقاً



هذا والله أعلم :(


On February, 13, 2007 10:37 PM , IRC President
from Egypt said:

Escaping is always a double-edge weapon,

short range: relief
long range: self-destroying.


On February, 14, 2007 9:38 AM , Eno..
from Egypt said:

ADEEMA YA GADOOO YA GHELES!


On February, 14, 2007 9:41 AM , Eno..
from Egypt said:

yes IRC u r right, thats why am aiming for the rlief as a long range result of facing not escaping!!




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